Knowing that Mrs.
Mallard was afflicted with a heart
trouble, great care was taken to break to her as gently as
possible the news of
her husband’s death.
It was her sister
Josephine who told her, in broken
sentences; veiled hints that revealed in half concealing. Her
husband’s friend
Richards was there, too, near her. It was he who had been in the
newspaper
office when intelligence of the railroad disaster was received,
with Brently
Mallard’s name leading the list of “killed.” He had only taken
the time to
assure himself of its truth by a second telegram, and had
hastened to forestall
any less careful, less tender friend in bearing the sad message.
She did not hear the
story as many women have heard the
same, with a paralyzed inability to accept its significance. She
wept at once,
with sudden, wild abandonment, in her sister’s arms. When the
storm of grief
had spent itself she went away to her room alone. She would have
no one follow
her.
There stood, facing the
open window, a comfortable, roomy
armchair. Into this she sank, pressed down by a physical
exhaustion that
haunted her body and seemed to reach into her soul.
She could see in the
open square before her house the tops
of trees that were all aquiver with the new spring life. The
delicious breath
of rain was in the air. In the street below a peddler was crying
his wares. The
notes of a distant song which someone was singing reached her
faintly, and
countless sparrows were twittering in the eaves.
There were patches of
blue sky showing here and there
through the clouds that had met and piled one above the other in
the west
facing her window.
She sat with her head
thrown back upon the cushion of the
chair, quite motionless, except when a sob came up into her
throat and shook
her, as a child who has cried itself to sleep continues to sob
in its dreams.
She was young, with a
fair, calm face, whose lines bespoke
repression and even a certain strength. But now there was a dull
stare in her
eyes, whose gaze was fixed away off yonder on one of those
patches of blue sky.
It was not a glance of reflection, but rather indicated a
suspension of
intelligent thought.
There was something
coming to her and she was waiting for
it, fearfully. What was it? She did not know; it was too subtle
and elusive to
name. But she felt it, creeping out of the sky, reaching toward
her through the
sounds, the scents, the color that filled the air.
Now her bosom rose and
fell tumultuously. She was beginning
to recognize this thing that was approaching to possess her, and
she was
striving to beat it back with her will--as powerless as her two
white slender
hands would have been. When she abandoned herself a little
whispered word
escaped her slightly parted lips. She said it over and over
under her breath: “free,
free, free!” The vacant stare and the look of terror that had
followed it went
from her eyes. They stayed keen and bright. Her pulses beat
fast, and the
coursing blood warmed and relaxed every inch of her body.
She did not stop to ask
if it were or were not a monstrous
joy that held her. A clear and exalted perception enabled her to
dismiss the
suggestion as trivial. She knew that she would weep again when
she saw the
kind, tender hands folded in death; the face that had never
looked save with
love upon her, fixed and gray and dead. But she saw beyond that
bitter moment a
long procession of years to come that would belong to her
absolutely. And she
opened and spread her arms out to them in welcome.
There would be no one to
live for during those coming
years; she would live for herself. There would be no powerful
will bending hers
in that blind persistence with which men and women believe they
have a right to
impose a private will upon a fellow-creature. A kind intention
or a cruel
intention made the act seem no less a crime as she looked upon
it in that brief
moment of illumination.
And yet she had loved
him--sometimes. Often she had not.
What did it matter! What could love, the unsolved mystery, count
for in the
face of this possession of self-assertion which she suddenly
recognized as the
strongest impulse of her being!
“Free! Body and soul
free!” she kept whispering.
Josephine was kneeling
before the closed door with her lips
to the keyhole, imploring for admission. “Louise, open the door!
I beg; open
the door--you will make yourself ill. What are you doing,
Louise? For heaven’s
sake open the door.”
“Go away. I am not
making myself ill.” No; she was drinking
in a very elixir of life through that open window.
Her fancy was running
riot along those days ahead of her. Spring
days, and summer days, and all sorts of days that would be her
own. She
breathed a quick prayer that life might be long. It was only
yesterday she had
thought with a shudder that life might be long.
She arose at length and
opened the door to her sister’s
importunities. There was a feverish triumph in her eyes, and she
carried
herself unwittingly like a goddess of Victory. She clasped her
sister’s waist,
and together they descended the stairs. Richards stood waiting
for them at the
bottom.
Someone was opening the
front door with a latchkey. It was
Brently Mallard who entered, a little travel-stained, composedly
carrying his
grip-sack and umbrella. He had been far from the scene of the
accident, and did
not even know there had been one. He stood amazed at Josephine’s
piercing cry;
at Richards’ quick motion to screen him from the view of his
wife.
When the doctors came
they said she had died of heart disease
-- of the joy that kills.